Beating a dead horse.... and other updates

So once again I have started doing research on what I want to be when I grow up. I am having difficulty figuring out where a nurse fits into Fertility, which I believe is my chosen specialty. I talked to a IVF specialist about what I should do to get into the field. His answer for me was to get a job as a nurse at a fertility clinic. Which is good advice, but its not what I want to do. I want to have patients, I want to do research, I want to run tests, make breakthroughs. I want to finally see my patient get pregnant, or be there for them emotionally when they can't. I know a lot of this I can do as a RN, but not all of it. At the same time I am not sure I can give myself to med school. I also wouldn't ask my family to go through it all with me. Plus I wont even get of school for my RN till I am 30 and I can't change majors now. I know that if I get my NP I can be happy. I would have to let go of the dream of working in Fertility. If I get my CRNA I would probably be even happier because I wouldn't have to choose a specialty.

Wow, I feel better... I should come back and read this post next time I am having doubts. I kinda feel like CRNA is the way to go since I wont have to pick a specialty that I wont love as much as fertility. But I hear that the Mal Practice insurance for a CRNA is outrageous.

Lets move on, school is starting back up, and I am excited to get back to it. I have been so disappointed in my performance as of late. I feel ready to take on my semester and get my act together. The wedding is coming along, Almost all the wedding invites are addressed and ready to be sent out. I need to set up a cake tasting pretty soon. Maybe this Friday, we are always so busy though. It seems like in a matter of moments a months worth of weekends disappear. Lucky for me school is starting soon, I will use it as an excuse "sorry, can't help you walk your dog next weekend. I have to study." Its not that I don't love our family and our friends, I just miss sleep, and relaxing, and hanging with my fiance.

I have been watching house hunters recently, and I think I would love to live in Seattle, WA. Its so pretty there, but expensive.

Well I need to finish our wedding web page and register for the wedding. I will try and blog more often.